Afar

by Ice Choir

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released July 31, 2012

All songs written, produced and engineered by Kurt Feldman.
Kurt Feldman - voice, programming, guitar, synthesizers.

With guests:
Patrick South - Fretless bass on tracks 2, 4 and 9. Synthesizer on 8.
Caroline Polacheck - Voice on track 9.
Jorge Elbrecht - Additional programming on track 5.

Mixed by Jorge Elbrecht
Mastered by Jaakko Viitalähde

A WINTER STATION PRODUCTION

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Ice Choir is Kurt Feldman

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Kurt Feldman, Patrick South, Avery Brooks, Raphael Radna

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Track Name: I Want You Now And Always
I want to die,
I want to feel you like the stars behind my eyes
The force applied,
Fingers pulling from the dark to break my spine
Feed me to the night, the day wears thin
Give me all your air, your blood, your sin
I want you now and always

I'll take the pill,
Be the inheritor to all your psychic will
I'll get a grip,
I'll be content to drink the sweat from off your wrists
Skip me to the end and fill me in
Give me all your air, your blood, your sin
I want you now and always

And when the far horizon calls
I only need to shut my ears and not say a thing…

….For flesh exchanged, my blood will sing
Don't go away, I'm reeling from your gold-dust poisoning
I want you now and always
Track Name: Teletrips
You were a shape-shifting terror
Chasing time 'round the talking table
Through plastic walls, the abstract world
Coasting on high as the royal curious one

(As if it could be more obscene
You willed yourself inside the screen)

History, fantasy
Falling around the child
Glorious lunacy
Kaleidoscopic cries
Misery, sympathy
Tarry or stand aside!
Televised ecstasy
Color across our eyes!

You were a strange interference
Twisting up frowns as the morals crumbled
They switched the dials to slow you down
Youth's prism dashed, you recalled reality's wall

(And grew up fast, a libertine
Some harmless trysts, no lesson gleaned)

History, fantasy
Falling around the child
Glorious lunacy
Kaleidoscopic cries
Misery, sympathy
Tarry or stand aside!
Televised ecstasy
Color across our eyes!
Track Name: A Vision Of Hell, 1996
Your gun called my name
Through the slime, I traced you to fame
Not so much the place you cut your teeth
As where you reside

I am the criminal in your vision of hell
Your vision of hell
The witch behind the spell and
The guilt is terrible

You die here everyday
As your face is etched in the gray
Now reduced to packets in a wire
As your hate subsides

I am the criminal in your vision of hell
Your vision of hell
It never ended well you know…

(I saw your cut-out shape flicker from the sterile throne
just below the outpost; a portrait of the architect retired..
…It's cruel i know, but someone's gotta be SACRIFICED)

Bad sectors in the mind
Bricks were laid and bombs, they were timed
You became the naturally select
And the incorrect

I am the criminal in your vision of hell
Your vision of hell
The witch behind the spell and
The guilt is terrible
I am the criminal in your vision of hell
Your vision of hell
The witch behind the spell and
Now it is plain to tell you won't be
SATISFIED
Track Name: Bounding
Wound agape the blade
Sear'ed heart,
Bound for…
Wilted melody, rusted prose
Darkening the mind, my beast through snow

Now, trapped at last
On and on, through endless vast
New scenery swells
Tides of discontent

Guide my arc of flight
Bend the compass arm,
And steer me clear of harm(ony)

You, my fading song
Tatter'ed cloth
Hang on
Needled cliffs will turn
To fields of felt;
A quilted earth
From cell to cell

New bitter desires
Told my guilt,
"Be still awhile"
Vice, cold in the vein
Whispering backwards in the rain,
Elysian and false

So guide my arc of flight
Bend the compass arm,
And steer me clear of harm(ony)

I want your love
Or isolate control
A fractured shape,
Some silhouetted goal…
…I'm bounding back my love

Guide my arc of flight
Bend the compass arm,
And steer me clear of harm(ony)
Track Name: Two Rings
Tears are drawn up into fingertips
In turn corrode the stone
Calloused gray when it was meaningful,
Now it blends in with your bones
Oh, you could spin a lovely future
One scrim between the kiss
But on this side, amongst the dimming light
I almost don't exist

(All is lost,
Peering behind the velvet cloth)

I had found you like a monolith
Five speeds to my exhaust
Tearing through the moonlit desert salts
Obsidian-eyed and lost
Here you exist alone, in parallel
Black ring upon your hand
Thieving seers had fed you oracles
So you met all of my demands

(All those dreams,
Soft and uncertain against my teeth)

Wearing away
Two rings, a violent end
Away! Away! Asunder!

I could talk around in circles
Dragging my dull and worn excuse
And I'd get whatever I deserve
Within the run-out groove

Wearing away
Two rings, a violent end
Track Name: Afar
Strange words
The sound of another time
Away
Forever to cast out my eyes
(With a vacuous wake not too far behind)

Back drift
The blue it will shift, it will writhe
A gift;
The tropics ablaze neon light
('Till some manic wind, a hard push to the right)

What I need more
Always afar

White noise,
Help me forget how to speak
THE VOID
Accepting of all that I see
(Collected thoughts, all scattered beneath)

What I need more
Always afar
Still longing for the reason
(Always unseen)
Always beyond my reach
Track Name: Peacock In The Tall Grass
His plumage deceived
My childhood dreams, blue-green
Pulled by a thread
Through time's riverbed, upstream
And as I mend the seam, he spills;
Flesh to steam

How I would haste these patient days
To know your verdant lawns
(You flaunt your shine, so pavonine)
But you run away, terrified
And now I cannot tell what's your's from mine
Or what i'll find

He thinks he is free but
My shadow, it hangs in the reeds
Once soft, supple limbs
Now taut with attentive greed
(And now i want your head, my quilled diadem)

A conscience bound and struggling
Once dazzled eyes, you've lost
(The glow, the beat, in self-deceit)
But you'd rather gag on the rime
Than share the hearth and watch the cold retreat
Upon receipt

With readied blade
My trembling future
In one hundred eyes

Could I rewind, I would trade it all
Just to chase you through
Soft pearls of dew
The warmth and hue…
Track Name: The Ice Choir
I will sing the ice choir
Oh, transient defeat
Lifeless world, my heart aches like
The wind through empty streets

Spared of good tidings,
Not dressed in ribbons of gold
And gathering winters gifts untold
A vibrating crystal;
Frost-whipped and singing through air,
Wait not for me love, i won't be there

Feel now for the heartbeat
Feel now for the pulse
Look now brittle treetops
Look now frozen pond...

Can you see yourself?

I will sing the ice choir
Oh, transient defeat
Lifeless world, my heart aches like
The wind through empty streets

Crushed and degraded,
Mapped to the black and the white
Descending like snow, o' holy night
And you were the whisper
Beside the hardening fear;
We'll melt to the language of the spheres

Feel now for the heartbeat
Feel now for the pulse
Look now brittle treetops
Look now frozen pond...

Can you see yourself?

I have joined the ice choir
Contracted in the cold
I will sing the aria
When all the birds have flown

***

…Now we are the ice choir
In hibernating pose
To listen for the crack of spring
Or push against the rose...

Can you see yourself?
Track Name: Everything Is Spoilt By Use
Everything is spoilt by use
Perhaps, to your dismay,
You will stand for my abuse
And never slip away
How your cup of autumn's wealth
Will overflow the sky
Pleasures all intangible
An anthem soft and sly

So put your tension on the string
Echoing, a warning
Fraught with fear and detached
From all those gifts, sincere
Trust, I'd spite to keep you near

Everything is spoilt by use
And soured with decay
Still I stand for your abuse
On prominent display
And you could have the languid winds
The harvest carols, clear
But you'll accept the stillborn spring
As long as I am here

So you can sing your songs of red
As crashing dawn comes swarming
Dulcet-eyed as fever taxes
What you broke;
No reprieve from all bespoke

Ever winter night
(Soundless and yet, cloying)
Set me free
(Dear misery)

Sing a song of red
A long, unraveled warning
Wayward one, how I liked you better
On your own;
Happiness is never home